further info on my pissed-ness...
ok, so after reading the comments from my last post (about being pissed off), i realized i have to fill in some more details.
i still hate other peoples kids - that hasn't changed. i stopped answering my phone in the mornings for last minute calls. if i KNOW in advance that i have to sub, then i can mentally prepare myself. so it's not that bad...
so the bf thing....
the night he had to "run an errand" at 11 pm:
i don't remember which night it was, but it was just before the superbowl. when i called, his older aunt answered the phone. she told me that he had to go out, but that he said it was OK for me to come ahead over and wait on him to come back. so of course i went.
i had to see how he was dressed, and his body language seeing me there, etc. once he returned from whatever he was doing. when i got there, i noticed that his stereo system was sitting on the front porch. which i thought was a little odd. the aunt and i chit-chatted until he got there.
he came in carrying some component of a stereo (amplifier, tweeter, woofer, some shit i dunno). he put in in the place in the entertainment center in the living room and started playing the new
Keyshia Cole CD (which was hot).
the other shadiness:
within the next two days after the stereo incident, he wanted to go out with the fellas, which i thought was odd because he's one of those people who keeps to himself.
but when we first began talking, i told him in advance that i don't plan on practicing monogamy until i get married. so if he felt the same, i just asked him not to mess with anyone is Smalltown (and i would do the same) as long as we also both agreed to use condoms ALL THE TIME. Smalltown is just too small and it was more of a respect thing. he agreed, but he's just always been home. now all the sudden he wanted to go out.
so i told him to go ahead and have a good time and to call me when he got home. which he didn't. which pissed me off. but did i really have a right to be be pissed? i told him to go and at least he ASKED before we went and not just disappeared.
we sat down after the superbowl and talked about everything. after i wrote about being pissed i called him - and to my surprise, he was at home...he never even went to the superbowl party (which is what i thought). he said he didn't go because once i told him i couldn't go, he wasn't going without me.
about the stereo thing - he said something happened to his stereo and he wanted to try to use the (whatever he got) to see if it would still play cd's with his DVD player . he always tries to play music at night so his older aunt can get some sleep while we are in the back of the house going at it. but somehow i always wake her up...but i digress...
he said when i called him that morning, i said something mean to him. in all honesty, i can NEVER remember what i say . i can only remember what someone says back to me. probably cause when i talk i'm not listening to what i'm saying. i'm just talking. so he repeated what i said, and it was kinda mean (something to the effect of if he had gotten in at a decent hour he wouldn't be so tired and he would be able to talk to me). but hell, I TOLD HIM to go out. if i didn't want him to go out, i shoulda said something.
he never told me what he did when he went out, and i never asked. i do know that he was very apologetic in bed on sunday and monday. he kept saying he was sorry for what he did, even while eating my pussy i kept hearing him mumble "i'm so sorry baby". the pussy eating still isn't every day, so i guess it was an extra treat for him being sorry.
truth be told, i'm not cold hearted. i can't just dump a guy on the drop of a dime like some people (steph - lol!!). no offense steph, you are still my girl, but i'm just not that hardcore.
i would rather have a guy go out and do whatever and then realize what he has at home and come back to it. i ain't gonna let it happen all the time, but we are just passing the 6 month mark in our relationship, so it's still fairly new to both of us.
most importantly - let us remember that valentine's day is NEXT tuesday. i know i got really nice christmas gifts and we had a great new year's. if he's THIS sorry about what he did, then i should rack up like a welfare mother on the first of the month!!
i still hate other peoples kids - that hasn't changed. i stopped answering my phone in the mornings for last minute calls. if i KNOW in advance that i have to sub, then i can mentally prepare myself. so it's not that bad...
so the bf thing....
the night he had to "run an errand" at 11 pm:
i don't remember which night it was, but it was just before the superbowl. when i called, his older aunt answered the phone. she told me that he had to go out, but that he said it was OK for me to come ahead over and wait on him to come back. so of course i went.
i had to see how he was dressed, and his body language seeing me there, etc. once he returned from whatever he was doing. when i got there, i noticed that his stereo system was sitting on the front porch. which i thought was a little odd. the aunt and i chit-chatted until he got there.
he came in carrying some component of a stereo (amplifier, tweeter, woofer, some shit i dunno). he put in in the place in the entertainment center in the living room and started playing the new
Keyshia Cole CD (which was hot).
the other shadiness:
within the next two days after the stereo incident, he wanted to go out with the fellas, which i thought was odd because he's one of those people who keeps to himself.
but when we first began talking, i told him in advance that i don't plan on practicing monogamy until i get married. so if he felt the same, i just asked him not to mess with anyone is Smalltown (and i would do the same) as long as we also both agreed to use condoms ALL THE TIME. Smalltown is just too small and it was more of a respect thing. he agreed, but he's just always been home. now all the sudden he wanted to go out.
so i told him to go ahead and have a good time and to call me when he got home. which he didn't. which pissed me off. but did i really have a right to be be pissed? i told him to go and at least he ASKED before we went and not just disappeared.
we sat down after the superbowl and talked about everything. after i wrote about being pissed i called him - and to my surprise, he was at home...he never even went to the superbowl party (which is what i thought). he said he didn't go because once i told him i couldn't go, he wasn't going without me.
about the stereo thing - he said something happened to his stereo and he wanted to try to use the (whatever he got) to see if it would still play cd's with his DVD player . he always tries to play music at night so his older aunt can get some sleep while we are in the back of the house going at it. but somehow i always wake her up...but i digress...
he said when i called him that morning, i said something mean to him. in all honesty, i can NEVER remember what i say . i can only remember what someone says back to me. probably cause when i talk i'm not listening to what i'm saying. i'm just talking. so he repeated what i said, and it was kinda mean (something to the effect of if he had gotten in at a decent hour he wouldn't be so tired and he would be able to talk to me). but hell, I TOLD HIM to go out. if i didn't want him to go out, i shoulda said something.
he never told me what he did when he went out, and i never asked. i do know that he was very apologetic in bed on sunday and monday. he kept saying he was sorry for what he did, even while eating my pussy i kept hearing him mumble "i'm so sorry baby". the pussy eating still isn't every day, so i guess it was an extra treat for him being sorry.
truth be told, i'm not cold hearted. i can't just dump a guy on the drop of a dime like some people (steph - lol!!). no offense steph, you are still my girl, but i'm just not that hardcore.
i would rather have a guy go out and do whatever and then realize what he has at home and come back to it. i ain't gonna let it happen all the time, but we are just passing the 6 month mark in our relationship, so it's still fairly new to both of us.
most importantly - let us remember that valentine's day is NEXT tuesday. i know i got really nice christmas gifts and we had a great new year's. if he's THIS sorry about what he did, then i should rack up like a welfare mother on the first of the month!!
posted by AngieMD2007 @ 9:40 AM
5 - the # of people who hit me up:
At 4:50 PM, February 08, 2006,
The Future said…
wtf he's your bofriend, but you told him you don't plan on being monogamous. You really have no reason to be mad, he is just following your guidelines. Maybe you guys should really try being together. The grass is always greener on the other side.
At 7:04 PM, February 09, 2006,
AngieMD2007 said…
future - you are exactly right. i know i said the non-monogamy in the beginning (because of the whole grass is greener thing), but then i ended up really liking him. and now i regret it. but what's done is done, and now it's in the past.
we talked about it last night and we've decided that we are gonna give it a try...so we'll see.
At 9:27 PM, February 09, 2006,
Coy said…
Ms MD,
I use to sub and one thing that really helped me was to come across scary or angry at first. Then ease up. If act tough at first the kids won't be so hard to deal with. I guess this kinda like prison - but I digress...
Other thing - try my little 4-down play - when dealing with kids assignments;
1)What are you doing?
2)What are you suppose to be doing?
3)Are you doing it?
4)When are you going to start doing it?
Good luck
At 11:21 PM, February 09, 2006,
The Future said…
Good luck with everything, I hope things work out with the guy, and no polygamy, unless it's with me
At 11:55 PM, February 15, 2006,
AngieMD2007 said…
coy - i am mean as hell to those kids, and you know what? they actually do their work. when they see me in the halls, they come running up to me and ask when i'll be in their class again. i'll try your 4-plan next time and see. thanks for the tip!!
future - ok, let's you, me, and he move to utah so we can all be together - LOL!!
ashley - men and relationships are all about hard work. sometimes, some of the work is on ourselves too...good luck with your situation too!!
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