BDD is in town

BDD is this guy i used to date a while back. we dated, then we broke up. then we got back together. then broke up again. after the 2nd breakup, i just stopped speaking to him. both times, i found out he was cheating.

we are now back on speaking terms. he's doing very well for himself. he lives in one of the major cities in south carolina, and he visits small-town on the weekends. so i see him around town from time to time, and he's definitely been flirting, really hard!

why do i call him BDD? it stand for "Big Dick Dude". he's got the biggest penis i've ever seen (including in most my pornos). he calls his penis a pistol!! he's also damn near 7 feet tall, so i guess that's where it comes from. i'm sure Shaq is probably packing too...although i dunno about that tall ass chinese dude - ha ha, just kiding!

i really had a thing for BDD, and of course i'm a wimp, so i still do. however, i am very cautious around him, even with casual flirtation. yes, i know i am in "i'm gonna fuck as much as i wanna before surgery" mode...but i don't think i can have casual sex with BDD without falling for him again. at least that's what the angel on my right shoulder is telling me.

meanwhile, the devil on the left shoulder knows how much MJ is jealous of BDD. the last time MJ even SAW me with BDD, he about shit himself. BDD took me for a ride on his motorcycle, and either he saw us together or someone went back and told MJ. MJ went running up to my cousin's house telling them he needed to talk to them about me. that was a few months back when me and MJ were in the early stages, so i just kept it platonic with BDD. but fuck that - that MJ (and his invisible penis) shit is over now and i'm a free woman.

besides, for the first time in my life, i just fucked a complete stranger (revenge sex guy) and i never called him again**. surely i can be strong enough to fuck BDD again...

anyway, BDD came over last night because i told him had a problem with my car. he took it to his shop (yes, he owns his own business!), fixed it, and brought it back, AND didn't charge me anything. THAT deserves a little head, if not some full blown nookie - LOL!!

sooooooo, what's gonna happen this weekend? only time will tell





**note: i think revenge sex guy is pretty pissed at me for not calling him again - lol. i saw him around town the other day and he didn't speak. it IS possible he didn't see me, as we were driving past each other. but everyone here waves at each other, even if you don't know who the other person is that you're passing. he just flat out didn't wave. maybe he's sensitive, maybe he was interested in a relationship. who knows - i didn't really take the time to find out.

men do that shit all the time, they fuck and move on - if he can't take it, he needs to grow some balls, make some testosterone, and get over it.